• It has been a while since I have been here and I am not expecting many visits from old friends but I would still like to post a few things.  Some of you are on facebook with me and some are not. I sort of miss the ones who are not.  I did enjoy reading your thoughts on things but sometimes life gets in the way and I really felt for the longest time I had nothing to write about.  I felt that so many had lives that were betting and much more exciting then mine.  
• Then my younger brother died.  It was such a painful death.  Pancreatic cancer took him.  It was such a painful time for me.  I had not expected him to die first.  I honestly expected him to be the one burying me.  And his wife does not like most of his family she she did not even tell me when the funeral was.  I did not get to see him before he died but we talked on the phone and I had a wonderful conversation with him.  
• Our relationship was complicated.  I made some foolish mistakes when I was younger and so did he.  We did not talk for the longest time but as I got older I wanted to see him and talk to him more.  He felt the same way but his wife felt she married beneath her and did not want him socializing with the family.   

About a year before he died, she decided to divorce him.  She was in the process of completing it when he received the diagnosis and she made it very plain that she was with him simply because she had a better insurance and it would cover him since he was her spouse.  The day he died, she moved the guy she had been living with into their home.  Her daughters are furious and they do not speak to her so I guess she will discover that life may not be that great without my brother.

I am just glad for the time I had with him.  I have some pictures but do not have them scanned yet so it may be some time before I post them.