An abyss is ) A bottomless or unfathomed depth, gulf, or chasm; hence, any deep, immeasurable, and, specifically, hell, or the bottomless pit.
My daughter says that is what she feels like most of her life and I do believe it is true. We have done all we can to prevent this but as she told me last night, Sometimes love is not enough.
My daughter has several problems. She has severe depression. She is bi polar and has schizophrenic tendencies. She is a cutter. She 27 and feels her life is over. She is also bi sexual and I think that adds to her sadness and confusion about life.
I do not understand being bi but I have told her I would love her no matter who her sexual partner is. That is waht parents do, don't they? They love their adult children no matter what. God loves us and accepts us. He is not always happy with us but he loves us. How could I not love my child? I am not happy with that choice but I will always love her.
I wish she were a happy person but she is not. She is so sad and miserable.
And the cutting...I do not understand that at all. I never will. I had to call the police last night and have an ambulance take her to the hospital because her arms were so badly cut by her.
She wanted to die. This is not the first time this has happened.
I fear that some day I am going to get a phone call that she is dead from her own hand. It scares me to no end. I keep praying that she can see the light and know that God loves her and wants her to be happy.
It has been a very sad two days for my husband and I.