The other day I was feeling good and wondering what would happen to bring me down again, My sugar was brought down and my bp so I was feeling optimistic. But I kept thinking the ball was going to fall and hit me square on the head again,
Two days ago, my best friend called to tell me her husband died. He was sweet guy and I felt bad for her and for us but not for John cause John had been suffering for some time. It was his time to go. I will miss him though.
But today my foster sister who has been suffering from colon cancer called to tell me her son, who was raised with me by my foster mom, was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and is in hospice care now. He is not expected to make it and I know that if Byrum dies, his mom will not be far behind him. I will lose two loved ones within a very short time. This news has devastated me. We were raised together from the time he was three and I was nine until we were adults. I am close to both of them.
I don't know what to say about it. I feel like I am in a fog of some sort. I don;t know what to do. Keep praying, I guess. But do I pray for him to live or pray for him to just be pain free and go peacefully? I guess just asking God to do His will, and pray for the best for him and his family.