I awoke with a feeling that the winter blahs may have finally left me. The sun was shining. Yes, it was sunny. Cold but sunny and that sunlight rejuvinated me.
I wish it had rejuvinated my mother in law. My husband is run ragged and he was upset today because she does not want to get up and get dressed or bathe. I told him today that was not like his mom and I think she may have had a slight stroke when she fell. Her personalty is so different. Before the fall, she would not have thought of leaving the house with a hair out of place or dressed just so. And to see her in the state she is in now is sad. But the others will not consider putting her in a home or in an assissted living apt. I told him he should reason with them because he cannot do this much longer.
I have the little one here much of the time. I love her but I can see why God gives babies to younger women. They are not worn out after a day of taking care of a child. I wonder how the women like my grandma who had 13 did it. I know my friend came from a large family and she said the older kids often helped take care of the younger ones. That is the only way I think it would work. There is something to be said about large families...they help each other out. But could you imagine fixing meals for 13 children every day? And she baked bread. No modern conveniences either. And the diapers that were washed out by hand....oh, dear. I would not like that.
I think we have it so much easier then our grandmothers and, yet, we complain. We should be very thankful we have life as easy as we do.
My eldest left the rehab center. She says she would rather live in a woman's shelter and do what she wants than continue on. I told her she cannot live here. I have done enough and it is time she learned the hard way to take care of herself. She is almost thirty and I cannot coddle her any more. I feel guilty but I have done all I can to help her.
I will just keep praying for her....